Whats-Left-Of-Me

Silky sky Drain me dry Floating in the air Translucent eyes just stare Filling me up with soundless questions Jumbled up wordless creations Asking me to confess....to confess But it's deafening, the silence, the silence And I have to ask May I take your hand? But whenever that day comes And you feel like walking away Just remember too look back And watch my world turn gray Wanting that forever But translucent eyes just stare Filled with words, symbols, I don't care And I must confess...confess And I look around me Silky sky Gray coloring And I float in the air; those transparent eyes They continue to stare...to stare

It was a rainy day You near me, gave me warmth Time was so slow and gray Surrounded by the muddy floor I tried to smile, my denial And whenever I think back Today seems to cloud over My heart fell through the cracks And it still feels like November Playing back that rainy track The warmth I use to feel Has faded from my side Daydreaming now it seems more real Closing my eyes I hold myself tight And through changing of time I don't know if I'm dead or alive As move slowly, can't seem to hide When I think of that November night As I retrace my steps I look what I have made The memories I had trampled As I ran away Denial g

I'm all by my self Don't need anyone else I have my moments In lying in my torments All I ask is "Everyone Please fill my empty pockets" And as my hand reaches in It's as empty as my eye sockets They stare on through And I don't know why I do this I spread myself like glue Tormenting myself, and others So much happiness I deny with a smile Because I know I'll fall Because I don't believe you at all All I ask is "Everyone Please fill my empty pockets" But as my hand reaches in It's as empty as my eye sockets So much words to define So much meaning to rhyme And I don't ask for even a dime But still no one will give me the

Suddenly It sickens me Again I'm face with this But yet I enjoy it This cruel desire Burns its thoughts in my head My soul cannot man-over The dead floating ahead Bleeding dry This casket will not fail It's my protector as we set sail The ocean of blood It sickens me But I enjoy it The way its done The way the skin tares I try to close my eyes But something keeps them open In agony I cry As I lay there frozen Its been so long on board The sea is endless There seems to be no shore My pain is endless

Its the small things around me The little moments, of peace The smile as we come to know the world; Dead and cruel The path we choose So care free, nothing to loose One step at a time Obstacles mean nothing, all is left in sublime Innocent born into sin Almost like a test To see who'll win Like baby birds from the nest Its a strange world Too young, with much experience So naive to the absurd In each generation, we see the carnage

You are the one, tonight We will last forever Even if the sky doesn't wake And the dead start to rise Even if the world is against us Just come find me and guard me eternally Oh if I start to go their way Promise me, promise That I wont stay to see What I would become Let us run let us fight Just assure me that I Could close my eyes Show me mercy as I leave you I love you too And let that weapon come on through Find the bliss Knowing this That I wont come find you Rape your soul And you would run, fight Make a journey to the light Where everything is where it outta be Let me see your hazel eyes As I sink into the da

Dear grief: You strangled me As I snuggled into your hugs I remember your joy Toying with my lungs Dear hate: I remember the excitement The bruises you left Told me to "look at the concept" As you sneered at me, you never left Oh I smiled as you burned my flesh There I go thinking of the past, it's dead Here I go feeling no peace, just dread You'll never get to break me Emotion's ran me deep They had prevented me from sleep I looked elsewhere ignoring them And yet the emotions tried to brush my lips again I want to tell you, my sweet emotions, I used to be yours The past is, the past And little by little, I don't know you

Goodnight sleep tight Please stay past the night Maddie, Maddie be OK Please tell us you'll stay So please stop hiding Under your mask of lies Maddie tell me something And look me in the eyes Its hurts to see you like this But it's not about us Maddie, Maddie be OK Please tell us you'll stay I see you now, broken and ashamed But pretty please tell us you'll stay Give us your pain Tell us how much you cry You are no disgrace And it's not your time We will replace your doubts Your insecurity, just don't die So please stop hiding Under your mask of lies Maddie tell me something And look me in the eyes You're our Maddie P

You can't see me You can't tell me who I want to be What can I do To convince you That I am all you'll ever need? And I start to understand And I smile in my sleep Death watcher Dream taker Stone believer Heart breaker I watch you Mr. Death I know what you want Dying is your greatest Torture You taunt me with life I smile knowing You can't get me this time So forgive the misgivings I've tried so hard to find you I even see you in my dreams Your face turned blurry and hued And I waved goodbye to Mr. Death As I breathed my last breath As I smile in my sleep

Love dies hard Most dismisses it to the floor Yours never goes far Mines? I wish it like yours I am peeling it away Inch by inch Your lectures, I'm so dismayed You're done so throw me in the ditch The painful pull Of such emotions My heart's so dull You're done with the pull I won't be sorry For my feelings I won't be sorry For my slow healing If you're done, you're done But I am sorry For the negativity But not for being me