You Won't Control Me

Dear grief:
You strangled me
As I snuggled into your hugs
I remember your joy
Toying with my lungs

Dear hate:
I remember the excitement
The bruises you left
Told me to "look at the concept"
As you sneered at me, you never left
Oh I smiled as you burned my flesh

There I go thinking of the past, it's dead
Here I go feeling no peace, just dread

You'll never get to break me
Emotion's ran me deep
They had prevented me from sleep
I looked elsewhere ignoring them
And yet the emotions tried to brush my lips again

I want to tell you, my sweet emotions,
I used to be yours
The past is, the past
And little by little, I don't know you anymore

Dear Pain:
I remember how you buckled me
The ground felt so heavenly
Your needle pierced me deep
You held on tight
I waited on you; you never gave me the time

Dear contentment:
I remember the dead silence
The hard stop, as everything slipped
And suddenly all was balanced
The nothingness ringed
Your silence made me scream

There I go thinking of the past, it's all dead
Where did my peace go, there's nothing but dread

Dear Emotions:
Remember the time
You all shamed me, leading me
Pulling me in different directions
And I'll be damned, if I let it happen again

I turn my back, let you settle down
No little children will haunt my Town
I look at you one by one, you all see
I won't let you ever control me